With the Lights On

"If it's the way you've always been doing it, you're probably doing it wrong" woke me up. I have so much to say about this, but I must sleep.
I shall continue to read and to listen in attempt to stay away from that void.


I have been somewhere new since a week ago yesterday. I know what I need to focus on. Monday will be filled with phone calls, reading, and self-reflection. I have it set for those things. There is so much to be and I am here. I am so far and so close that I am here.

I am alive and loved.





I feel good.

I leave something behind tomorrow and as I walk out the door I will reconnect with someone who helped me through so much of last Autumn. I am so excited to have her in the city for a bit <3. And, I'm designing a small show (10 day gig) and then it's into the unknown, but the known* is good, so I shall not predict it away.



*known until something changes... transforms.

Sometimes I worry about how good things seem right now. I know there is a lot of hurt in this world, but I feel as though a lot of my wounds have healed fairly well and I am surrounded by a great loving community of people. I just got off the phone with one of my newest favorite conversationalist. He makes me feel validated and I love listening to him. This morning I had a cereal date with amber and we got to catch up. Being around her reminded how we all take separate routes, but we

"You only kindasortareally make my heart flutter"

I am so incredibly blessed.

Today's rainy morning was filled with productivity, pleasant thoughts, and a wondrous phone call with my favorite Melissa. Watching Bullitt [1968 movie with Steve McQueen, Jacqueline Bisset & Robert Vaughn] with my brother and his friends was fun- and included cake! I had a chance to talk to my parents. My brother and I bagged leaves- which I know doesn't sound like something to be too thankful for, but it was fun and we didn't make too, too big of a mess. And then there was a lovely phone call followed by posting of pictures on facebook. And tomorrow shall be another fabulous day!

I like this world.